Why I Have Trouble Sleeping Every Single Night

Insomnia is no joke. Like, sure, I’m sure there are funny insomnia jokes out there, like, “I never get tired of telling insomnia jokes…” Think about it. Thiiiink about it.

Seriously though, here is the true and 100% fact-filled reason Why I Have Trouble Sleeping Every Single Night.

Me, all day, every day: I. Need. To. Work.

Inside Me: But I’m nervous about tomorrow!

Me: Get over it, it’s time to work.

Inside Me: Tomorrow, tomorrow tomorrrrrowwwwwww.

Me: Ugh, we need MONEY. Don’t you get that no money = living in a van under a bridge?? We don’t even own a van. We’ll have to live in someone else’s van!

Inside Me: *whispers* tomorrow…

Me: I KNOW, I get it, but c’mon. Let’s get motivated. Let’s get stuff going! Maybe we’ll forget about tomorrow.

Inside Me: Not likely…

Me: You’re a jerk, you know that?

Inside Me: Don’t make me start singing songs you memorized in junior high. I’ll totally go there.

Me: You wouldn’t.

Inside Me: *at the top of her lungs* All right stop, collaborate and listen! Ice is back with a brand new invention. Something grabs ahold of me tightly –

Me: STOP!!! I GIVE!!! I GIVE!!!

Inside Me: Tomorrow.

So here’s the thing. I’ve tried prescription pills. I’ve tried over-the-counter pills. I’ve counted sheep, counted ceiling tiles, counted stars, counted to a million and back…I think I might have gotten stuck on counting there. It’s the insomnia, I couldn’t help it. Thing is, for the longest time I fought it.

Seriously fought it.

Tooth and nail battle of wills every single stinkin’ night about trying to go to sleep and waking up at a decent hour to live like a normal human *takes a deep breath* aaaaand…then I stopped.

Stopped fighting. Gave in. Now when I can’t sleep at night, I get up. Read a book. Work. Take a bath. Sit outside and enjoy the sound of crickets and the cool night breeze. Watch the sunrise.

And it’s crazy. Yes, sometimes I’m more tired during the day, or sometimes I might need to take a nap, but…I’m happier now.

I’m not going to say this approach would work for everyone, I’m not you. I don’t know what your schedule is or what your family is like, or what responsibilities you have to be alert for each day. But for me? I’m not a fighter. I gave in and honestly, I couldn’t be happier.