I don’t know what it is. I mean, I guess it is the lack of sleep these last three weeks and dealing with Halle’s crazy ear infections and watching my girl be in pain with them that has made me a total basket case. But, anyway…. I am a total emotional wreck lately. We were watching the new Hannah Montana movie this weekend and I cried a little when she took off her wig. Seriously, I cried a little at the Hannah Montana movie. Tonight I was watching Bedtime Stories and there’s a point when the kids run into the mom’s arms–you guessed it–total waterworks. I am not very good at being all emotional like this, and I know it’s just because I am tired, but I think there might be another reason, too.
I think that maybe, just maybe I want to tell a story that evokes emotion in other people. Do you have any idea how friggin hard that is? I want my story to be the kind of story that you think about later and maybe even bring it up to a friend or two. Now, the question is, how can I do this? I feel like I love my new heroine (or actually villain but hey you know what I mean.) But I want everyone else to love her too. And, that my friends is the hard part. I need her to be awesome, quirky, brilliant and a little bit of a goofball all at the same time. She has to be funny, but most importantly I have to tell her story on the pages! That’s what so scary about my story right now… I love it so much that I am scared I can’t do the characters and the story idea I have justice. I fell like I should find a better writer and pass it off to them.
Whew. Maybe I do just need some sleep.
