I got a shower today. Why should you care?
Because, out of all the quarantine days so far, this is the day I didn’t want to the most.
I have hit a new level of depression today. I’m sad.
Sad for the life we had. Sad that I can’t see my family. Sad that I live in a two-bedroom house, and my kids have nowhere to go and play. Sad that I can’t just jump in the car, and take off to — anywhere.
Today, I’m feeling hopeless, and hope is the one thing that is so important to have.
Hope keeps you going.
Hope keeps you moving forward.
I’m not moving forward today.
I know. Like a good friend of mine said, I should just suck it up and be grateful for all the things I have.
I AM grateful, but today is not the day I can just suck it up.
Today is hard.
If you are feeling the same, I am so sorry. This sucks. I can say all the things — “It’s going to be okay,” “We got this,” “Chin up, buttercup,” “You are loved.” Maybe this is all true — maybe it isn’t. Maybe we’ll find out. But, not today.
