I stood in front of the bank teller waiting for them to explain how it would take ten days to return $300 that they freely admitted was an error on their part and then I was crying. Red, hot, embarrassing tears. Snot. The whole nine yards. My heart was pounding, my face probably very red, and me looking like one of those babies who gets super #hangry. I cry when I’m angry. Every single time. And it’s the most embarrassing thing that happens in my adult life.
Crying when I’m angry is probably the most frustrating thing about being an adult. I’ve done it my whole life, but it’s so much more frustrating when I’m trying to deal with adult issues but have very real tears streaming down my face.
It’s so much harder for people to take me seriously when there’s a snot bubble coming out of my nose as I’m telling them how disappointed I am in them.
I remember this one time when it happened after the person who came out to clean my carpets did the worst job humanly possible. His supervisor came out to view the wreckage and said it looked fine to him. Tears. Instant tears. “It’s not fine,” I said, sniffing back as much of the tidal wave as I could. “He didn’t even touch two of the rooms I paid to have cleaned.”
When you cry when you’re angry, people tend to feel they can get away with more. Or at least that’s what it feels like. When I go to the mechanic there’s a chance they’ll find fourteen more things wrong with my car after the tears start than they found before.
If I try to even disagree with a friend or family member, I’m immediately accused of being dramatic.
There are so many times in my adult life when I find myself frustrated or angry because things just aren’t going great, and every single time the water works start.
How do you stop that? Is there anyone who has found a way to stop being #Crangry? Truly, if you know a way, I could use the help…I’d starting to get fairly dehydrated.