Today Is Hard And Nothing You Say Can Make It Better

I got a shower today. Why should you care?

Because, out of all the quarantine days so far, this is the day I didn’t want to the most.

I have hit a new level of depression today. I’m sad.

Sad for the life we had. Sad that I can’t see my family. Sad that I live in a two-bedroom house, and my kids have nowhere to go and play. Sad that I can’t just jump in the car, and take off to — anywhere.

Today, I’m feeling hopeless, and hope is the one thing that is so important to have.

Hope keeps you going.

Hope keeps you moving forward.

I’m not moving forward today.

I know. Like a good friend of mine said, I should just suck it up and be grateful for all the things I have.

I AM grateful, but today is not the day I can just suck it up.

Today is hard.

If you are feeling the same, I am so sorry. This sucks. I can say all the things — “It’s going to be okay,” “We got this,” “Chin up, buttercup,” “You are loved.” Maybe this is all true — maybe it isn’t. Maybe we’ll find out. But, not today.