Sigh…
OKay, so tonight my book is horrible. Every part of it I hate. I glance up to look at something, and I catch a typo or just something I don’t like. I think my characters are flat, my story is off, and that my big bad isn’t big or bad enough… it is quite frustrating!
I know it isn’t horrible, I love this book most of the time, but for some reason, I can’t love it today, and that stresses me out. It’s a weird relationship that I have with this book. I am so close to it, but so scared of actually writing it at the same time. I know that it makes me happy to write it, but why is THAT the thing I have decided on that makes me happy? Why didn’t I come up with something a little more reasonable?
I am very lucky that I have a husband who gives me the chances to explore my dream, but at the same time, I don’t want to fail, and not just for me, but for him too. (Lots of commas in that last sentence, SEE!)
Self doubt is okay, right? We can’t be full of confidence all the time? I just have a lot of self doubt in my life, and I don’t want to! I need to make this work for myself! I can do this… I CAN write this book, and it WILL be good, and I WILL get it published, and then we will all cheer and rejoice when we see the picture of my little book cover over on the side. I can feel it now!
Um, right?
Self doubt???? Girl, I never knew you to ever have a doubt! Go for it!
You can do anything you set your mind to, and I will be the first to buy a copy! You always wanted to be a writter and now is your chance.
Your hubby is behind you and so is everyone else. Get the presses rolling, Jamie is on her way!!!
I like the new look, by the way!
Don’t sweat the typos and grammar stuff! That’s what editors are for! Just concentrate on the story itself. The other stuff gets ironed out in the editing process.