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Working all day long and still feeling totally energized…

So, my husband and I recently discovered the awesomeness that is Panera Bread.  They have big spacious booths, pretty good coffee, great food, and free wi-fi.  We have been taking our laptops up and working when our daughter is in preschool, and it is awesome.

I like it because it gets me out of the house, forces a change of scenery on me, and makes me people watch a little bit.  I wrote before about how I was writing a book, and I think I might just finish it.  I really like the story and something weird happened today… my character took an unexpected turn and did something I never thought she would have done.  It was like as I watched her grow up a little, she made a big grown up decision that I never thought she would have made, but there was no way around it, it was the decision she was supposed to make.  It was really freaky to watch my character take on a life of her own like that, but she did, and there was nothing I could do about it!  I mean, sure I could have written it differently, but I realized that there is noway she would have made that decision!

It is hard falling in love with your characters when you know that the idea of getting your book published is such a total long shot, but I can’t help it.  They live in this world I invented for them, and they make me happy.  Writing a story is a lot more like reading one than I would have imagined.  I always kind of assumed I would control the outcome more if I wrote it, but it is like the story lives on its own and I am just there to put it on paper.  I like that in some ways, but in others it kind of stresses me out!  I am still having fun though, and my book is like 70 pages long!  Haha if I were in high school and a teacher had told me to write a 70 page long anything I would have promptly stood up and walked right out of that class, and here I am willingly putting myself through that and not even being bothered by it!

It’s so much fun to put a story on paper, but it is sad to think that no one may ever read it.  The wide world of publishing looks very scared, and I don’t really ‘do’ rejection, so I don’t know how I will handle that when the time comes!  I guess for now I should just be happy with doing something that makes me smile and be excited that I am fortunate enough to have a husband willing to let me spend my time doing it!

Okay, it’s probably time for me to get back to it now!  Maybe I will turn up the pandora radio and see if I can’t find some good tunes to inspire my creativity.