She turns four in a week, and I don’t even know how to handle that.
You would think out of everyone, I, the former kindergarten teacher turned stay at home mom, would be ready for this. I would be ready to start thinking about Halle’s actual school career, but the thing is–I’m totally not.
I have her signed up for an excellent little preschool next year, and I am very happy about that. I actually started her in a mother’s day out type program for a couple of hours a week last year, and she continued it through this year, but I feel like next year is when things have to get serious.
Why am I putting so much pressure here to make good decisions for her?
Why do I want to make sure she starts out with the right kind of schooling? And–more importantly–why do I feel like I can’t give her the academics she needs? I really don’t think I can is the thing. I love to read with her and give her all the Mom stuff that’s so important, but when it comes to that whole teaching thing… I am scared to teach her. I feel like I am going to screw it up and she’ll be screwed forever!
Poor kid! Her mom is nuts! But I am proud of her and I can’t wait to watch her sing in her little program tomorrow!