Okay, so yesterday I was emotional… but today I am overwhelmed. Now that Hal is on the mend, I keep looking around the house, and there is just so much to be done!
For starters, my cleaning lady quit. She got a job and isn’t able to clean our house anymore. At first I was cool with it because it meant we were saving that money and I thought heck… this won’t be all that big of a deal. But, now that I have time to process it a little bit–FRAK!
It isn’t that I don’t have the time to do it… heck I wrote a book and am almost 10,000 words into my second one for crying out loud. It’s just that I would rather do other things, ya know?
I hatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehate cleaning. I hate everything to do with cleaning. In fact, cleaning afterward actually keeps me from doing some of the things I love to do. (sewing, scrapbooking, etc.)
When we moved into our house, I was seven and a half months pregnant with Halle and on half day bed rest, so I didn’t really unpack us. An army of friends and family stepped in and just took care of all of it. The problem is that I have been feeling overwhelmed ever since, and that was FOUR years ago. I am just crazy that I haven’t taken care of this yet. I just feel like everything is okay… but not exactly how I wanted it, ya know?
For example… my kitchen wasn’t organized by me and it drives me up the wall. I don’t like where anything is, and I feel like I am always all over the place looking for stuff. Ugh! I need to get it the way I want it, but because it started this way… I feel like any other way would be the wrong way… ya know?
I know what I need to do… but I just don’t know how I am going to get there! I need to take a few deep breaths, and maybe get a good weekend’s rest and then maybe I will feel like I can tackle my life again… but right now… not so much.